Slipped away

So I'm not usually an Avril fan, but this song got to me. I think the following lyrics really sum up the loss I feel...

"I hope you can hear me, I remember it clearly... The day you slipped away, Was the day I found it won't be the same."

What I am mourning is more than the loss of my babies. It is the loss of innocence. Many of the joys of my future pregnancies have been ripped away from me. I'm rippled by fear. I was forever changed the day I realized how hard this would be.

This song also touches on how hard it is to lose something without saying goodbye. It is hard to explain how much you loved your unborn babies. They grew inside of you, and you never got to see their faces. They very silently slipped away before we even had a say in the matter. This is a very different kind of greif than we are used to feeling when we lose a loved one.

Here are the song lyrics to the whole song, and a link to the song...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZxAAspHOfF4

I miss you, Miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found
It won't be the same

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oh I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why

And I can't take it
It wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by

Now you're gone Now you're gone
There you go There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back

Now you're gone Now you're gone
There you go There you go
Somewhere you're not coming back